Miracles and Magic

A few things this Ramadan has taught me ©        Be prompt and be steady . If you’re able to wake up and have something to eat an hour before starting your fast,  then realise that after Ramadan, waking up an hour prior to worship is just as critical. Be steady in throughout the day and be prompt in your tasks. It worked for me J ©        Be wise . Recognise that certain events of the day do not call for frustration, anger, or responses that will upset you and upset others. Choose your battles, and remember that Godis pleased with those whom are patient.  ©        I learnt the importance of the Al Quran . I learnt that my Muslims friends read the Quran more than they usually do every day . They showed to me that one shall not neglect Quran, for neglecting Quran is neglecting the message of Allah. Their motivation and persistency in reading the Quran makes me so proud of them. ©        Amplifying sins and belittling deeds . My friends taught me that EVERYTHING that y

I need a firmer grasp on something I can’t seem to make out what though… Everything has been flying by—words, noise… people. A lot of the times I’m just like fuck it. But there are times when I can’t get myself to look past, and forget them. I’d like to believe that I’m always myself—honestly and truthfully me. But I constantly find myself getting caught between who I am and who people think I am.  Be yourself. Be yourself. Be yourself. Those words haunted me, and probably still are. I honestly don’t know what they mean. How would I know when I’m truly myself?  How would they know when I’m truly myself?  Chances are, I will never,  and they will never . I don’t think this will get any easier. I don’t want to be the person that shuns the entire world because of a few broken promises. I’m sure the pain isn’t eternal and time will eventually take over. I’m just terribly impatient. Yeah, patience, that’s definitely it. 

Enough said. 

Barricade ,  is any object or structure that creates a barrier  or obstacle to control or  block passage. And deep down in me, I have always wanted to be a barricade for someone. At least a barricade to assure that my loved ones are not in danger. It's like when you become a barricade that saves someone's life, you instantly become a superhero. I mean, at least it is more realistic than Superman or The Avengers. I wanna be the barricade for those girls out there who lost their hope, strength and faith after numerous heartbreaks. I wanna be the barricade to all those single parents out there who are trying so hard to live a good life with their family. I wanna be the barricade to those special needs kids who are often isolated and alienated because of their differences. I wanna be the barricade to all those innocent kids who lost their parents in the war. I wanna be the barricade that helps all of them go through their days in life feeling blessed rather than depressed. I know

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TODAY is the 1096th day. I don't really know how to feel. One minute I don't care. Another minute I'm breaking down. I know it's probably going to be just another day for him tomorrow. But I just can't help but feel so far away from him at this moment. 1096 days ago, I was the happiest girl. And along the months that we were together, I was anticipating tomorrow so anxiously. The plans I made in my mind. The words I'd say tomorrow. It's all in my head. I never thought I would lose something so important. It's just that, the thought of losing him never crossed my mind. I know that I have not lost him yet, but it feels just too close to losing. I guess that was my mistake. I want to continue but sometimes I don't even know if it is right. I mean I want to. I want to say things on my mind to something less abstract like maybe to a person or something not to my blog. Not like my blog can help me pick myself up. The feeling of being betrayed, it's a

It kinda sucks when you're in a relationship but you feel as though only 1 party is taking all the effort to make it work. What makes it worst is that the other half tries to be secretive about their life.It is as though they can't trust you with anything. This whole week has been like hell. The only good thing was Sunday night. Apart from that,life was being a total bitch for me. I just can't tell what he feels or what he wants. I just can't tell what he would be like if I were to act in a particular way. Well you see, things have changed. So much have changed. It makes me feel like he is someone new. It is as though I have to read the very first page of a newly written novel. And you know what ? That sucks. Maybe, just maybe if he and I were not that close, I wouldn't get hurt so easily. I'm lost at words and actions with uncertainties fluttering around my mind. I just wanna get rid of all these feelings. At least soon. I wanna be that person he used to s

The past 10 days of my life have been the hardest for me. The toughest for me to endure. The days where every smile was fake. Every tear was real and every heart aching moment seems suicidal. It was as though every part of me was torn to pieces. I never knew that I would be so affected by the fight. It was inevitable. I was standing on solid ground yet I felt as though I'm being pulled into a quick sand where no one was gonna save me. It was just so difficult. It made me felt like I had no one to turn to. Sleepless nights every night and panda eyes every morning. It's a surprise that I'm still alive. I want this to end so badly. I want it to end at this very moment. Now. I want all this sleepless nights to end. I wanna be loved like I was loved before. I wanna have all those strength I used to have. I wanna be again. The past 10 days taught me one important thing. It taught me that : You can't always be happy nor can you always be sad. But, you can always pray.

            All I ever wanted you to do was feel what I feel and get treated the way I get treated. I want you to exhale the air in the sky like I exhale it. But all you ever did was feeling different. All you did was wash your hands with the air. All I ever did was feel the feeling of really loving someone to the extent that it suffocates me. It makes me forget how air even feels like and I sometimes forget about myself. To be true to you, there is nothing wrong with me feeling this way. Nothing is wrong. What is wrong is the way you and I perceive it. What happen to the promise u made me to always be there no matter how I feel? Because at the stage that I’m standing now, the only accompany I have is the shadow of myself. Each time I tell you how I really feel, you tell me you understand and maybe deep down in you, you really don’t.             Each time I look at you and each time our eyes meet, the love I feel measures up to the air