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TODAY is the 1096th day. I don't really know how to feel. One minute I don't care. Another minute I'm breaking down. I know it's probably going to be just another day for him tomorrow. But I just can't help but feel so far away from him at this moment. 1096 days ago, I was the happiest girl. And along the months that we were together, I was anticipating tomorrow so anxiously. The plans I made in my mind. The words I'd say tomorrow. It's all in my head. I never thought I would lose something so important. It's just that, the thought of losing him never crossed my mind. I know that I have not lost him yet, but it feels just too close to losing. I guess that was my mistake. I want to continue but sometimes I don't even know if it is right. I mean I want to. I want to say things on my mind to something less abstract like maybe to a person or something not to my blog. Not like my blog can help me pick myself up. The feeling of being betrayed, it's a bitch isn't it. Don't you have someone, whom you trust, and you tell him everything you've been bottling up inside. When you're at the point in life, when everything seems to go wrong, everything is falling on you and you're too virtually down to even pick yourself up, is the point when you need someone in your life.  And at this point, I realise how much I need him, but I guess he just doesn't know it. :')

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