Because I'm losing you and I am afraid.
Tomorrow will be the 804th day. I don't really know how to feel. One minute I don't care. Another minute I'm breaking down. I know it's probably going to be just another day for him tomorrow. But I just can't help but feel so far away from him at this moment. 803 days ago, I was the happiest girl. And along the months that we were together, I was anticipating tomorrow so anxiously. The plans I made in my mind. The words I'd say tomorrow. It's all in my head. I never thought I would lose something so important. It's just that, the thought of losing him never crossed my mind. I don;t know if i'm losing him, I'm just feeling that way. I guess that was my mistake. I try so hard because I really want to continue. I mean I want to. I want to say things on my mind to something less abstract like maybe to a person or something not to my blog. Not like my blog can help me pick myself up. Okay, that’s it for now. Blogging while feeling like I’m right on my