Miracles and Magic

All my life,  the only thing ever wanted was to make someone proud of me. All my life, I have never ever felt how it's life for someone to be proud of me. And all my life, I felt like I have failed to make anyone proud of me. Not my parents,  family , not him and perhaps not even my friends. I often wished that one day, I would find someone who will always be proud of me and be proud to have me in their life, and today the one that I really thought was proud of me all this while turns out to be embarrassed to have me in his life.  All these feelings are simply because I have never really felt if I have achieved anything in life that can make anyone proud of me. Yes, I have made decisions in the past and my past was bad, terrible and ugly actually but I moved on and I learnt. I learnt to let go of all the negative energy that might ruin me in the future. I let go of  every single thing I encounter that may harm me or my loved ones. I try hard everyday to make someone proud. I w