WHAT WAS YOUR:
1. Last beverage : Coffee :)
2. Last phone call : Amirul Zakwan ♥
3. Last text message : Kak Yana
4. Last song you listened to : Iris by Goo Goo Dolls
5. Last time you cried : Yesterday. 19th April 2012
HAVE YOU EVER:
6. Dated someone twice : ??
7. Been cheated on : No i guess?
8. Kissed someone & regretted it : Yes.
9. Lost someone special : Yes.
10. Been depressed : Yes.
11. Been drunk and threw up : yes1
LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:
12. Purple
13. black
14. red.
THIS YEAR HAVE YOU:
15. Made a new friend: Yeah, sure.
16. Fallen out of love: No
17. Laughed until you cried: Lol. Yes haha!
18. Met someone who changed you: He changed me into someone wayyy better :)
19. Found out who your true friends were: Yes!
20. Found out someone was talking about you: Yeahh. disappointed but i made it through :')
21. Kissed anyone on your friends list:DEFINITELY!
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: 3 QUARTER ?
23. Do you have any pets: NOPE :( I want a persian cat!
24. Do you want to change your name: No. :)
25. What did you do for your last birthday?: nothing. :) it was Deepavali, so 2 celebrations on 1 day :D
26. What time did you wake up this morning?: 11!
27. What were you doing at midnight last night: On my bed, staring at the ceiling!
28. Name something you CANNOT wait for: GRADUATION :)
39. Last time you saw your Mother: Last March :(
30. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life : I want to be happier :')
31. What are you listening to right now: Marry Me by Train.
32. Have you ever talked to a person named tom?: No.
33. Who's getting on your nerves right now: no one :)
34. Whats your real name: Evanna Devi :)
35. Nicknames: Eva or Eve
36. Birth month: October
37. Zodiac sign: Scorpio
38. Male or female: Female.
39. Primary School: Sek. Keb. Assunta (II) Petaling Jaya.
40. Secondary School: Sek. Men. Keb. Assunta Petaling Jaya.
41. High school/college: Institut Pendidikan Guru Kampus Sultan Abdul Halim
42. Write whatever you want here: so many things! New spikes, new running vest, A CAR!
43. Long or short hair?: Short. Middle length
44. Height: 152.5 cm
45. Do you have a crush on someone: Im crushing on my own guy. Does that make sense? :D lol
46. What do you like about yourself: I can eat so much and not gain weigh. HIGH METABOLISM.
47. Piercings: Yes. :)
48. Tattoos: NOPE :(
49. Righty or lefty: Righty :) Lefty too when it comes to football! :D
FIRSTS:
50. First surgery: None.
51. First piercing: My ears.
52. First best friend: Jade Veronica. She is now in UK. the prettiest bestie ever :)
53. First sport you joined: Athletics :)
54. First vacation: Genting maybe?
55. First pair of trainers: Adidas
RIGHT NOW:
56. Eating: Nothing :(
57. Drinking: nothing :(
58. I'm about to: go for athletics training :)
59. Listening to: A perfectly good heart :)
60. Waiting for: a miracle !
YOUR FUTURE:
61. Want kids: 3 to 4 :)
62. Get married: 26 ?
63. Career: teacher :) a noble job
WHICH IS BETTER:
64. Lips or eyes: eyes :)
65. Hugs or kisses: huggggggggggggggssssssss :)
66. Shorter or taller: Taller !!
67. Older or Younger: Older!
68. Romantic or spontaneous: Both !
69. Nice stomach or nice arms: Both.
70. Sensitive or loud: LOUDDD!
71. Hook-up or relationship: Relationship for keeps.
HAVE YOU EVER:
72. Kissed a stranger: NO!
73. Drank hard liquor: YES ;P!
74. Lost glasses/contacts: NOPE!
75. Sex on first date: Sex after I got married!
76. Broken someone's heart: I have no intention.
77. Been arrested: Nope.
78. Turned someone down: To fight! Yes.
79. Cried when someone died: Yes. My uncle :(
80. Fallen for a friend: He felt the same way too. woww :P
DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
81. Yourself: yes.
82. Miracles: So much!
83. Love at first sight: not really :(
84. Heaven: Yes.
85. Santa Claus: yes
86. Kiss on the first date: nope!
87. Angels: Yes.
ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
88. Did you sing today: Yes :)
89. Ever cheated on somebody: err, idk :(
90. Are you afraid of falling in love:YES. ULTIMATELY AFRAID.
Friday, April 20, 2012
Tuesday, March 27, 2012
Cabaran 15 hari
Cabaran 15 Hari :)
here goes!
Day 1- Put your iPod on shuffle: First 10 songs that play
Day 2- A picture of yourself
Day 3- Someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why
Day 4- Plans/dreams/goals you have
Day 5- Nicknames you have; why do you have them
Day 6- Someone you see yourself marrying/being with in the future
Day 7- A picture of something that makes you happy
Day 8- What makes you different from everyone else
Day 9- Something you crave for a lot
Day 10- A letter to your parents
Day 11- What I would find in your bag
Day 12- What you think about your friends
Day 13- Why are you doing this 15 days challenge
Day 14- A picture of you last year and now, how have you changed since then?
Day 15- In this past month, what have you learned?
Because people change and friends leave
At one point of my life, I actually wanted to believe that there is no such thing as vast changes, but I WAS CLEARLY WRONG. It occurred to me earlier today that things do change, even people do. We are like the 4 seasons around this world that change through time. Who am I to blame for being such a fool. I was one being which has way too little knowledge about the realities that revolve around this world. As I ventured into the adventures of my life today, I realised again that good things never really last, because even good friends don't.
It is as though we all go through a transition period where one thing after another would fall into pieces and later scatter around our life. It's like broken pieces would end up getting way too scattered to be puzzled back together. It's like there is no way for all these pieces to be assembled as one again. As I write this with a disappointed and broken heart, I know that things will never be the same anymore, in fact, I don't want it to be the same. I'm going to make this change as a new beginning and turning point in my life. If the after effect of this action is good then I'm lucky and if it is not, I'm just gonna take it as an experience. Things are not always going to go my way, and I am certainly aware of that and whatever it is, I am ready :)
Dear Lord,
grant me the serenity in making decisions and bless me
in every action of mine. Forgive me for all the sins that I have
committed and give me the courage to hold on to the right
things and to let go of what's wrong.
AMEN.
Friday, March 16, 2012
Goodbye Holidays and Hello School :)
Hello Bloggers. So that time has finally arrived. It's time to head back to college. Back to the usual dramas and routines. Back to my second home. It seriously isn't that bad actually. I mean, I truly enjoy being in SP. Though it differs so much if I were to compare to Shah Alam or Kuching, I still love Kedah as much as I love home. I guess it's the people in college that makes life so good :) Since Im gonna be in college again real soon, I wouldn't be updating my blog so often. Big apology for this one. I seriously have no clue on what to say or write or rant on this entry, so goodbye :D May all you readers be blessed! :)
And here is a random picture I found on tumblr that made me feel so contented with the life that I have. God is great :)
Thursday, March 15, 2012
A terrifying night
Here comes the night when you start over analysing every little thing that has ever gone wrong in your life. You start thinking about all the mistakes you have made and wished you could turn back time and hope for a better past. Well, that is basically the night that I am going through. As I sit on this bed of mine, memories of the past keep on bugging me and I keep on wondering about the actions that I made in this current life of mine. Things are pretty fucked up that it sometimes make me wanna just blurt it all out in tears. I guess I understand why people cut or even commit suicide. It is because the pain that they have to endure in the process of cutting themselves or even committing suicide is lesser than the pain that they have to go through in their daily lives. It's sad how people who you thought you could trust start to turn their backs on you and it's weird how sometimes your enemies treat you better than your so-called- friends. It's a crazy lil world we live in. That's for sure. And its sad when you thought you actually have someone to call your own but it turns out that they are never really there. I hate this kind of nights where I have to think so much adn analyse and later evaluate every little action of mine. It fucking sucks. It gets the best of my emotions. It drains me out. It makes me weak and It makes me wanna do stupid crazy things which I should not. Right now, i just want this terrifying night to end. I want every little thing to run smooth when I wake up tomorrow. So God, I know you're listening and I just wanna wish for a few things.
Firstly, forgive all my wrong doings and show me the light to the right path.
And secondly, teach me how to love and be loved. :'( Amen.
PS: It's a rough night and I wish I didn't have to go through this alone.
Wednesday, March 14, 2012
I thought you were there. I was wrong
IM TIRED
IM DISAPPOINTED
IM BROKEN
IM UPSET
IM SAD
I LOST FAITH
I GIVE UP.
ENOUGH SAID. THANK YOU.
I'm done trying to appear strong to everyone. This time, i fail. I'm gonna fall over and over again over the same problem and
please, don't lift me up. I'll find my own way . Thank you.
Because things change, people grow and sometimes feelings fades.
Dear you,
I'm not sure if you'll read this entry but I sure hope that you do. After listening to the song you gave me earlier, it actually made me wonder. What if we not make it ? What if there is no such thing as future or happy endings for us? Well, I can assure you that IAMNOTREADY but here are a few words for you :')
Regardless of what happens, remember to always be you.
Rain or shine, I'll be there for you ;')
Nothing is ever going to ruin the memories we once shared.
One day, you're gonna be happy with the chosen one :)
You're always gonna be that the one and nothing will ever change that.
I will always pray for your happiness :)
You're gonna be a great 'king' to a 'queen' and she's lucky :)
The point is, I don't know what the future may bring but whatever happens, I want you to be happy.I want you to be happy today, tomorrow and always :)
much love,
your favourite girl :)
Monday, March 12, 2012
Sunday, March 11, 2012
Fuck you
I FUCKING HATE THE FUCKED UP SHITS THAT THE SITES ARE GIVING ME. GO DIE!
FUCK YOU.
SINCERELY,
A FUCKED UP PERSON.
Im gonna stop.
I’ve always followed my heart instead of my head. I’ve always jumped, always took that leap of faith into the unknown, having no idea of what the outcome of my actions would be. But now, now it’s so very clear. I need to stop following my heart. I just need to stop, before I do anything at all. I need to stop and think about it, about what I am about to do. I need to think about whether it is right or it is wrong. Because when you follow your heart, you lose track of what’s right and what’s wrong, and it tears you apart.
Because I love you
I wanna be the one you run to when you're afraid
I wanna be the one you cuddle to sleep each night
I wanna be that one girl you can rely on in anything
I wanna be the girl that you could rant on anything about
I wanna be the one you have breakfast , lunch and dinner with
I wanna be the girl who is gonna always support you in everything
I wanna be the loudest cheer leader when you play football or rugby or whatsoever.
I wanna be the one you're always gonna love.
I wanna be your girl.
Seems simple? It's hard. I know because I've tried being that girl. I know because I went through the past few years trying to be good enough. I know because I've shed too much
tears for you. At this point, I'm not sure if we are on the right track. Should we
move on with this whole relationship or just let go ? I just don't know. And maybe,
I DON'T WANNA KNOW :'(
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